April 5, 2009 at 11:10pm

Searching For Answers

Searching For Answers
What is it?
That which governs
My thoughts;
My actions;
My feelings.

Is it bitterness?
Or is it disappointment?
Is it both?
Is it either?
Or neither?

Why is it that
All this time,
All I’ve had are
Questions, questions and questions?

What is this emotion
Quelling inside of me?
What is it called?
Why can I not put a finger on it?

Is it because
It doesn’t have a name?
Or is it because
It is too powerful to be named?

Why is it that
All I have are Questions, Questions, and Questions!
Why not answers?

My IQ level is 138.
Is that good or bad?
I think good.
If it is good,
Why is it that
All I have are unanswered questions???

Why is it that every time
I pick up my pen,
I encounter Questions;
More Questions;
Only Questions;
And not answers?

I look for them.
I look for them high;
I look for them low.
I look for them under;
I look for them above.

But do I find them?
I think the Answer is no.

Why is it so hard to find an answer?
Am I looking too hard?
Or am I not looking at all?
Am I looking in all the right places?
Or in all the wrong ones?

Why is it
That this bus ride has
Inspired me more than
My safe haven of a home?

Why is it
That the countless bumps and brakes
Do nothing to my thought process
But accentuate it?

Why is this
Over-the-top urge,
To put this feeling into words,
So hard to describe?

Why is it that?
All I have are Questions, Questions, and Questions??!!
Why not answers?

As this bus-ride approaches its end,
My words start pouring out,
With double the intensity and passion than before...
They just keep flowing like the endless river…

Why is that?
Why is that ? I ask.
WHY is that?

Why is that all I have are Questions, Questions, and Questions??!!


My blog posts may not be conventional...but hey atleast Im writing something down!